You know!! I have had baby fever pretty much since Landon was 2 months old. When I realized how fast he was growing and that he wasn't going to be small for that much longer, it broke my heart! I by no means had the perfect pregnancy or labor, but After it was over I told Jon, that I was either meant to have 60 babies or I was meant to be a labor and delivery nurse. I loved the feeling and emotions and the excitement of the labor room, I was so sad when it was over, I wanted to do it again!!!
Jon and I have been talking about baby #2 for awhile now, Talking about it everyday for the last few months. I'm not getting any younger and time is flying by. We are ready!!!! SO whats the hold up?? ME. I'm Just so nervous.WHY??? Financially we will never be perfectly prepared I know that. I talk about how much I love Landon and how I was meant to be his mom,and how much I enjoy being a mom, but I'm scared for # 2 AWWWWWW!!!!! There is a tiny part of me that wants Landon to be the only child, I want to spoil him rotten, I don't want him to have to share the attention he gets or the love. Does any of this even make since?? But the larger part of me is desperate for baby #2, I just cant figure out what's holding me back!! I know I sound crazy and silly and like always I have contradicted myself . Maybe I'm over thinking things which I always tend to do. Landon needs to be a big brother. For now Ill just continue to pray, after all its Gods plan, not mine!
Jon and I have been talking about baby #2 for awhile now, Talking about it everyday for the last few months. I'm not getting any younger and time is flying by. We are ready!!!! SO whats the hold up?? ME. I'm Just so nervous.WHY??? Financially we will never be perfectly prepared I know that. I talk about how much I love Landon and how I was meant to be his mom,and how much I enjoy being a mom, but I'm scared for # 2 AWWWWWW!!!!! There is a tiny part of me that wants Landon to be the only child, I want to spoil him rotten, I don't want him to have to share the attention he gets or the love. Does any of this even make since?? But the larger part of me is desperate for baby #2, I just cant figure out what's holding me back!! I know I sound crazy and silly and like always I have contradicted myself . Maybe I'm over thinking things which I always tend to do. Landon needs to be a big brother. For now Ill just continue to pray, after all its Gods plan, not mine!